Anything you find out...

“I think it would be a good idea to do some additional testing.”
Heart. Sank.
I could feel it beating fast within me as I tried to keep my smile on my face. I didn’t even realize my eyes were getting teary.
My mind started to wander down streets filled with hypothetical thoughts and build bridges based on possible scenarios and solutions…
And then we talked and she explained her thoughts behind the suggestion. Nothing crazy had happened and nothing was wrong; it just always helps to know more in certain areas so you can treat and approach with care, wisdom, + increased strength.

As I got in the car and sat with Jesus for a second on this, God met me there and reminded me with such tenderness and quiet confidence…"Cleere…Anything you find out, take heart that I already know.”
Isn’t it interesting how we think that what is new to us is new to Him? The Creator who formed us, controls all, and determines the end from the beginning is never surprised or caught off guard.
And while we know that, I think it’s hard to remember that He prepares , positions, and powers us according to what HE knows, not what we do.

I think we are worried that we won’t be able to handle it or hold it properly. Or that we won’t have the energy needed to sustain the hurdles ahead. Or that our normal—the one we have fought for and finally established—will be rocked. How will it all come together? What will it look like? Will we have what we need to navigate the detours or the difference between our expectations and our reality?

“Anything you find out…”—anything. No matter how devastating, difficult, or discouraging—anything.
The outcomes have always been up to Him.
Our job? Your job? My job? To be wholly devoted to holding His hand + trusting His lead. Because the truth is, you couldn’t cook up or conjure up how the King handles the intimate details of your life. It’s interwoven into the fabric of eternity + it supersedes what feels possible.

Turns out, this convo was birthed out of hope, not fear, from the clinician. But either way, my heart needed the reminder—my Father is prepared. That’s all I need to know 🤍